Black And White Photography, Famous Photographer
It is very queer that the unhappiness of the world is so often brought on by small men. It is only terrible to have nothing to wait for. But why does a man live? In order to think about it? I want to think and at the same time that is the last thing in the world I want to do. We were young, and we had just begun to love the world and to love being in it; but we have been cut off from real action, from getting on, from progress – we do not believe in those things any more. Life is a disease, brother, and death begins already at birth. Every breath, every heartbeat, is a moment of dying; a little shove toward the end. Our knowledge of life is limited to death. Good or ill, life is life; you only realize that when you have to risk it. To forget is the secret of eternal youth, thus one grows old only through memory.
The land and the water make numbers joined, through endless night the earth whirls toward a creation unknown – a poem written in flesh and stronger than steel or granite. For years I went about, day and night, with only one thing on my mind – her. She rises up out of a sea of faces and embraces me, embraces me passionately – a thousand eyes, noses, fingers, legs. I could see only the eyes shining through; eyes so big and bright, as if they saw more than they could comprehend. That’s what made them so beautifully bright. One can wait a whole lifetime for a moment like this. The woman whom you never hoped to meet now stands before you and she looks exactly like the person you dreamed about. But the strangest of all is that you never realized before that you had dreamed about her. Your whole past is like a long sleep, which would have been forgotten had there been no dream to become reality. I sit down beside her and she talks. I hear not a word because she is beautiful and I love her and now I am happy and willing to die. But she even wouldn’t remember that at a certain corner I had stopped to pick up her hairpin, or that, when I bent down to tie her laces, I remarked the spot on which her foot had rested and that it would remain there in perpetuum, even after the cathedrals had been demolished and the whole Latin civilization wiped out forever and ever. I loved – and I lost.
Très chic. I am planning on buying 20 Porsche and crashing them all just for the extravagance! Ohhh, je suis très désolé! Independence has always been my attitude. And because I am a woman, I must make unusual efforts to succeed. To do, not what is expected, but what I feel is right. You don’t need a perfect body or designer clothes to score a date. All you need is a smile and an actual life of your own. I am a modern lady, but not a trendy one. I remain eternally young simply because of my characteristic style. Other women get old, I get vintage. The roads are waiting and so is me. Hit me on the road and push me to my limits and you seriously can burn some rubber with me.
I’ve been out on that open road, singing in the old bars, swinging with the old cars. That’s the way the road dogs do it. That’s the way I make my life an art. This is my idea of fun. Don’t break me down, I’ve been traveling too long. I’ve been trying too hard, with one pretty song. I wear my red lipstick, I grab my coat, I grab my sax. Winter of my life, let’s ride. Don’t take me home again, take me to a new land. I can escape to the great sunshine, make it out to the other side. Drugs, suck it up like Vanilla Ice-ys, treat me really nice-ys. My eyes are wide like cherry pies. I was born to live fast, die young, live my life on the run. Oh, my God, I feel it in the air. I’m on fire, I feel it everywhere, wonder if this is it, it’s darkest before dawn. I fall asleep in an American flag. I’m Miss America, now I’m gone. I’m Miss America, now I’m free.
The inside of the old Lincoln Continental smelled like asphalt and desire, gasoline and dreams. In my teens the backseat produced the sexual revolution. Three o’clock in the morning. There is something unbearably sexy about cars at night. The way the fenders twist the light and reflect the road, the way every driver becomes anonymous. The highway is empty, under a malignant moon. The oil drippings make the roadway gleam like a blue-satin ribbon. The night is still but for the engine’s humming noise. The touring car is going so fast it sways from side to side. The road is straight. The way is long. The night is short. But all males chase women they have no intention of marrying for the same reason dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving. At that very special night, after ‘The Last Picture Show’, driving my mom’s car along the country roads, I began to wonder how real the landscape truly was, and how much of a dream is a dream. I dreamed of driving off bridges, into the moonshine river, into the dried-up reservoir on the country road to home, into the lake beneath some twisting highway of my youth. And my tears were not allowed to cry.
Looking into the lens I ask myself: people spot a big black lens, and they worry about what they are doing, or how their hair looks. Nobody sees the person holding the camera. I’m Big Shot, I had fallen hard for the whole gadgetry: a tiny piece of glass slowing, bending, organizing light; the film keeping the image like a secret, tucked neatly into the sleek black box. The first cameras had only inventors, buffs and enthusiasts to operate them. Since there were then no professional photographers, there could not be amateurs either. It was a gratuitous, that is, an artistic activity, though with few pretensions to being an art. It was only with its industrialization that photography came into its own as art. What it once took a very intelligent eye to see, anyone can see now. Recently, photography has become almost as widely practiced an amusement as sex and dancing – which means that, like every mass art form, photography is not practiced by most people as an art. But if you choose your subject selectively, intuitively, the camera can write poetry.
Because the automobile has become our national sex symbol we cannot really enjoy anything unless we can go up an alley for it. So we have to divorce our wife today in order to remove from our mistress the odium of mistress in order to divorce our wife tomorrow in order to remove from our mistress and so on. As a result of which the woman has become cold and and undersexed; she has projected her libido on to the automobile. So in order to capture and master anything at all of her anymore the man has got to make that car his own. So he must not only own one but renew it each year in pristine virginity, lending it to no one, letting no other hand ever know the last secret forever chaste forever wanton intimacy of its pedals and levers, having nowhere to go in it himself and even if he did he would not go where scratch or blemish might deface it, spending all Sunday morning washing and polishing and waxing it because in doing that he is caressing the body of the woman who has long since now denied him her bed.
Through photographs, each family constructs a portrait-chronicle of itself; a portable kit of images that bears witness to its connectedness. They are on the auction block; a big ’4 Children For Sale – Inquire Within’ sign in a Chicago / Illinois yard mutely tells a family’s tragic story. For long months the family waged a desperate but losing battle to keep food in the mouth and a roof over their heads. With no place to turn, they decide to sell their four children. The mother was shielding her eyes from the camera while her four small children stare wonderingly sitting huddled on steps outside. This photograph is the remake of an infamous historical photo originally taken in 1948, that made its way into many U.S. newspapers. Redone to put focus on the tragic case again because things haven’t changed very much. Human trafficking is still around in many countries and still numerous children are sold throughout the world. Many of them abused by child labor and kept in child slavery; not to mention sexual abuse and child prostitution.
I live in perpetual expectancy. You come and the time slips away in a dream. It is only when you go that I realize completely your presence. And then it is too late. You numb me. You could fool me, I wouldn’t know it. I can’t fool you – and yet I would like to. I don’t know what to expect of you, but it is something in the way of a miracle. I am going to demand everything of you – even the impossible, because you encourage it. I even like your deceit, your treachery. It seems aristocratic to me. No woman has ever granted me all the privileges I need – and you, why you sing out so blithely, so boldly, with a laugh even – yes, you invite me to go ahead, be myself, venture anything. That is where you are truly regal, a woman extraordinary. I laugh to myself now when I think of you. I have no fear of your femaleness.
Cars are like rolling diaries, metal and plastic and paint tableaux of the last years of their lives. Every dent, every drooping slice of chrome, has a story behind it. The Fifties in the automotive industry were awesome. The cars were heavy, huge, rolling works of art. Now your soul is bowed down to the dust and your belly is stuck to the ground. A garden gnome, that is what you have become. Here you are, forgotten, rusted, sick, wrecked. What a destiny! White trash? A winter’s bone? Meth or snow? No no no! Attracted by this sleeping old beauty, thrilled by this rare garden find, the camera went around the sealed white body, studying the cold, white coffin where the Cadillac S. De Ville resides in a safe slumber. Dear Caddilac S. De Ville, you are hiding layers and layers of hot dreams and riches, oh, if only I could be the one to break through your winter sleep and crank your engine to burning life again; to help you to remember the when and where you came from, the era, the spirit – and the dream peddlers – who had created you. But the classic beauty just wearily yawned: ‘Why would you care to wake me? If a dream is meant to die, shall it live again?’
When I am in my car I am laid back. I got an eight-track tape and a spare tire in the backseat, but that’s flat. I took a drive today. I guess it was the beatings that made me wise. Time to emancipate. To drive, not to be driven. The way that you wander is the way that you choose, the day that you tarry is the day that you lose. The whole idea of the road, of going from one place to another, is essentially American. Cars are the ultimate symbol of freedom, independence and individualism; they offer the freedom to go anywhere, whenever it suits and with whomever one chooses.
The distinctive feature of the photographer is his ability to surprise and to exceed our expectations. But who really knows what is on in the photographer’s mind when he creates work? The female flower, nearly stripped, but never obvious nor offering little, rides lightly on the timeline where the space extends into the depth. The female form factor, represented by the curves of elegance and playfulness, is positioned in a barren, male landscape. A portraiture of life and relationships – the joining of the two universes, male and female, merged in perfect, rare Fibonacci harmony.